The Twisted World of Avarice

Been doing some thinking. Some about money, and how this world is so wrapped around it. Avarice and greed; Mammon is too powerful of a demon for us.

My thoughts are clearly stated as this. Money can go f*ck itself. I don't care about it. Too many people make money their life. Without it they feel like they have absolutely nothing, but they are wrong. Money is not life, it is just a sad part of our life. Like what Jesus said, "Return to Caesar what belongs to Caesar, and return to God what belongs God." God does not want to associate himself with money. It is something we created and have to live with now. In fact, people are starving to death and dieing of dehydration, people rob and are robbed, and people even take their own lives all for a worthless pile of paper and metal. I don't like it and I don't like how I even have to rely on it. I'm not broke or in debt or poor or anything, better off than others I'd probably say, but just the thought of money is foolish.

Meh

I was kind of depressed and pissed off today, but I feel a little better now. It's just that I feel a lot of love but not a lot of trust sometimes. I try to be a man of my word and make people trust me, but it just feels like I'm not trusted much. I don't break secrets or anything, it's not my place to tell others what they don't want others to know. It's up to them to tell who they want. But, I don't know I can't read minds.

I need a hug. :(

I've been listening to Within Temptation for a while. I really like the vocals! :)

Oh, and Danielle if you happen to read this, can we talk sometime?

Work in Progress

That's what I am. A work in progress. Finding out who I am. Learning something new everyday. I've had plenty of time to just sit and think. It's what I've been doing a lot lately. Perhaps that's why I tend to post something everyday. Because I write done some of the stuff I think about each day. Today, I've been thinking about my zombie story, a fantasy story thing I've been coming up with and the usual; the confusion in my life about someone. Then I suppose there are other things that don't come to mind right away, but those ones stick out, probably because I was reading The Hunger Games (which I finished!) most of my day today.

Bleh.

The Light at the End of the Tunnel

There is a light at the end of a dark tunnel, but what is this light? I think of it as a fire. A fire you build. If you stop building it, then it will burn itself out and when your time comes you will be lost. You must contiune to put wood on this fire. You must keep this fire burning, you must stay strong, you must stay faithful. If not, then you will be gone.

i hope

Perhaps talking will help,
but it could make it worse.
I just don't want anyone to get hurt,
but I think we're beyond that point.

:(

confused,
me

Love....

is like a gun. A gun is not wicked, it is how the one utilizing it that makes it wicked. Much like how love is good, but it is how we use love that can cause problems.

I'm new to this and already I'm causing my own problems. :\

My Thoughts of Alcohol

I have never tried alcohol, so this post comes from one's view of this substance.

I was asked one time why I don't drink. I told him that I didn't know. Which is partially true, but I think I have a pretty good understanding why I don't. I look back on that time, and I wish I would have said what I'm about to say now.

This is what I would have told him:

"What's the point? What good has come out of alcohol? I know more people who drink than I know people who don't. Is it really that amazing? I see myself as a very curious fellow, but this is one thing I can live without trying. I think. Then there's this thing that I've heard be called "a buzz," this good feeling you get when you drink. Is that why people drink? I ask a lot of questions that I could probably answer myself if I tried it, but that would only be my opinion. I think others drink for different reasons.

Another reason has to do with my religion. In the Bible it labels drunkeness as being a grave sin. That's just drunkeness, so just drinking a little probably isn't bad, but whether drunkeness is a bad sin or not, I still think it's a bad thing. Even over indulging in alchol has to be bad. Isn't that considered gluttony? And isn't gluttony one of the seven deadly sins? I think it is. One more thing. Your body is the temple of God. You should take care of it and not poison it with such things.

Finally, my last reason is it's effects on the mind. Getting so bad that you lose control of your actions, and can't remember what you did the night before. That sounds terrible to me, but to others it sounds like a good time. People who get behind the wheel of a vehicle who think they are fine to drive and end up getting in a wreck killing a whole family and themself. Sure, that doesn't happen all the time, but I think it happens often enough to make it a serious thing. Why do this to yourself? I just don't understand."

That is what I think about alcohol. And I realize most of it deals with over indulging in it though.
I don't know why I had the urge to post this.